Lightness

[catelin]

It has never been in my nature to keep my own secrets well. I can effortlessly carry the secrets of others with me to the grave, but my own buzz around inside of me like bees. Saying things out loud is like cutting loose the sandbags that weigh down my spirit. I was ashamed not to be as happy as I was so certain I would be. I was ashamed that the man I fell in love with failed me so profoundly and so quickly. I was ashamed when I realized that the root of my uneasiness lay not with the men I've attempted to live with, but with me. Having finally spilled it all out made me human again, and I woke up this morning feeling better than I have since I arrived here several months ago. My life is always good. I have no doubt that, having acknowledged my true circumstances, I will now get on with making it even better. I am grateful to and for you all. Thank you so much for the kindness and understanding you have always shown me.

Comments

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

oh, this post makes me feel good. for you and everybody. thanks, cate.

[notwolf.livejournal.com]

i'm quiet, but i'm here, darlin'...

Yeah, what s/he said.

[rockstarbob.livejournal.com]

I was just gonna say.

Re: Yeah, what s/he said.

[nickelchief.livejournal.com]

Same here. Listenin' and wishing you every good thing from here on out.

[sun-set-bravely.livejournal.com]

This is wonderful. It's amazing how healing the act of spilling out the demons can be. Thank you for sharing your courage with us here. Go well.

[ex-friedrich47.livejournal.com]

You should feel good. Marriages are always alot more than romance, and I guess they often survive after the bloom of love has faded.

[nandan.livejournal.com]

Powerful words, dear Cate. I imagine you floating.

[ex-muzer409.livejournal.com]

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