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([personal profile] catelin Jan. 4th, 2006 05:42 pm)
"You have a what?" she says to me.

"A journal. It's this thing that I started a few years ago and I just write in it when I have something to say."

"Like what? Stories?"

"Different things. Not really stories, but sometimes I guess they are."

She clicks the mouse. "Let me see."

There is a pause and then she looks at me.

"Oh."

I fidget with the uncomfortable part, the explaining why there are a few hundred people who are remotely interested in anything I might have to say. How do I begin to tell someone not familar with the concept about my virtual house? This place where I have, for the past five years, welcomed both friend and stranger to break bread with me. I don't have an explanation for it. I never have.

"I just write stuff," I say, red-faced and fighting the urge to look down while I scuff my foot in pretend dirt.

The moment passes and we move on to other things. It's been weeks. She doesn't read my journal again. I'm oddly relieved, without any idea why.

From: [identity profile] tofarawayplaces.livejournal.com


And THIS is why I belong to LJ-for good writing like this.

From: [identity profile] haleiwatown.livejournal.com


The only real-life people I have on my friends list are ex-lovers who know me in and out already (heh). I'm not sure I could ever let a childhood friend in, or a member of my family...I'm not that brave.

From: [identity profile] fireangel-999.livejournal.com


Maybe you are relieved because it's a personal part of you that you wanted to keep personal but also wanted to be forthcoming about it and she didn't reject you for it? I feel so privelidged to be a part of your LJ and your virtual life.

From: [identity profile] sun--king.livejournal.com


"This place where I have, for the past five years, welcomed both friend and stranger to break bread with me" - what a lovely sentiment.

Most of my RL friends would find LJ bewildering to them...

From: [identity profile] buscemi.livejournal.com


I'm oddly relieved, without any idea why.

>>Maybe it's because you secretly realize that you can say whatever you want?

I have a hard time explaining LJ to people, too. From the non-computer folks I get questions like, "What do you find to talk about for so long? Don't you get tired of being on a computer after looking at one all day for work?" and so forth. ;)

From: [identity profile] tomaxblade.livejournal.com


Sometimes, the closer that you are to someone, the MORE you need a space that is "private" where they don't go.

I've wanted my bf to see how my mind works at some times ... since I am not always able to SAY it to him ... but overall, I'm happier with my OWN space where I don't need to censor myself as there will be little "repercussion" in my immediate reality.
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


Sometimes, the closer that you are to someone, the MORE you need a space that is "private" where they don't go.

A perfect way to put it. I find that I feel very much this way with certain people. It's not so much a matter of not wanting to share the ideas with them, but so much more about the concept of having a space that is mine (even though I gladly share it with others) without the worry of it becoming an ours.

Oddly enough, I have no idea if my mother reads my LJ. I know she's aware of it and for a brief while I worried about whether I should censor myself in some way just in case. In the end, I figured that anyone I know who stumbles upon my journal from my non-virtual circle of friends enters at their own risk.

From: [identity profile] quuf.livejournal.com


I tell the few friends who know that it's an online group dedicated to the personal essay. That's all I'm prepared to say and all they need to hear.

From: [identity profile] sun-set-bravely.livejournal.com


I love the image of your LJ being a place to break bread with friends and strangers. I admire the way you use this space.

From: [identity profile] fourstrifes.livejournal.com


There's something dishonorable about people seeing sides of you that are meant for other people.

From: [identity profile] anoisblue.livejournal.com


You are an open and honest person. I like to believe I am too, and part of that is an urge to have others know us, I believe. Be not afraid.

From: [identity profile] welfy.livejournal.com


I never try to explain Livejournal or that I met my boyfriend there. I call us "a community of people who like to write."

From: [identity profile] outlaw-jesus.livejournal.com


i kind of envy those people who don't belong to LJ.

From: [identity profile] suladog.livejournal.com

oh lord!


I get the same reaction when I try and explain this stuff..I guess I'm supposed to be too mature to be blogging.

From: [identity profile] roet.livejournal.com


Blogging seems to be one of those things that some people just get, and others don't. You shouldn't ever be ashamed of it, but I can certainly understand why you wouldn't want everyone you know reading. It’s a strange concept/mixture or personal private thoughts on public display with running commentary. Blogs are similar to a forum but with much more control and personality. As for the situation … yeah, I’ve been there … it’s awkward.

From: [identity profile] archivist10.livejournal.com


I love your journal. I've been reading it since June 2005 when it turned up on the friends page of a friend of my friend. I've never spoken to you, but I've personally gained a lot of food for thought from reading you. The one thing I've been hoping to read more about is...how many languages do you speak, in what circumstances did you get fluent in Spanish and when/why did you become a lawyer? Nosey basic stuff probably, but I sooooo want to know!
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


Wow! Thank you. : ) As for the other questions, I'll give short answers and try to expand on them later.

1. I speak several languages very badly (French, Italian, Portuguese, a tiny bit of Russian and Greek) and two proficiently (English and Spanish).

2. I have spoken Spanish since I was a young girl, and traveled to Mexico every year from the time I was about 15 until I have my first child.

3. I have been a lawyer for a little over a decade and I sort of fell into it when I decided I would "take a break" from working on my Ph.D.

From: [identity profile] themouseketeer.livejournal.com


::blink:: That'd be *me.* Wow. Sorry, I get over excited when I suddenly discover that I have been a completely unknowing catalyst.

And, have I really been reading for that long, too? I get so pleased and excited when I see you post, because I always get something from it. Hope I can give something back, and my chipping in is OK. I count myself as the 'stranger' and feel blessed that I am welcome to break bread with you, too.

Thank you.

From: [identity profile] tessed.livejournal.com


It is odd when the LJ world meets the "RL" world, no? How the heck are you? Missing our rainy, cold, wet, snowy east-coast weather yet? *grin* Thought of you the other day when watching TV and they kept running ads for "Roller Girls." Hope all is well! Happy New Year!
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


Oh, I definitely don't miss the cold!! Of the many things I learned, there is no doubt whatsoever that I'm definitely a warm weather girl. I've been good! I'm glad to see you! : )

From: [identity profile] noblwish.livejournal.com


Lately, I've been having "fun" explaining Amazon.com, IMDB.com, PayPal, etc. to friends and family who are SO incredibly internet-ignorant, yet so DESPERATELY need to log on and improve their lives!

"*WHINE*WHINE*WHINE* Life is so hard. I can't find/do/whatever [fill in the blank]."

"Gee, Mom/Buddy/Stranger... have you tried yaddayaddayadda.com?"

"Yaddayaddayadda dot WHAT?"

*SMACKS*HEAD*HARD*

From: [identity profile] normalgrrl.livejournal.com


It's ok. Just explain this is good for the soul and that you don't use people's names and can lock entries. She may be more understanding.
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


Oh, I don't think she was bothered by it so much as perplexed. I think it's simply a matter of one of those things that people either "get" or not. Part of me felt like I should have been piqued that she wasn't more interested in reading my thoughts...but ultimately, I was relieved that she wouldn't be combing over the last few years of my life.

From: [identity profile] moxi01.livejournal.com


Erm hello [livejournal.com profile] catelin well I know you don´t know me... , mhh but well I happen to know you are a friend of [livejournal.com profile] kerrsmith2306 and well [livejournal.com profile] nost_nenime and I have a sort of an little surprise idea for his return...well we both thought about a sort of project...
100 reasons why we all like our [livejournal.com profile] kerrsmith2306 so much...well I would be happy if you might like to say a line or so or more if you like...for e.g. why you friended him or why you like him...or anything...the basic idea is to collect all the thoughts of his friends and then collect every thought and make a big list...and then post it alltogether...well please help us...that would be very kind of you...greetings:-))...

Sorry if I bothered you....if you have a question...ask away...please anticipate....greetings:-))

http://www.livejournal.com/community/mister_x_rox/

From: [identity profile] thepetey.livejournal.com


My husband didn't get the Live Journal thing when we met. He always wondered what it was all about, even after reading all my past entries. He liked reading the past entries, It gave him a look into my mind before we met.

Now, the silly man has one.

From: [identity profile] whatifitworks.livejournal.com


I think that the people who don't get LJs are the people who are never introspective. They couldn't possibly write down their thoughts because all of their own thoughts consist of everyday trash or other peoples lives. Spending time introspecting is a weakness or a waste of time for some I have met; they are actioneers that believe that things have to be done rather than said. But it's so hard to be close to people like that; they don't know themselves enough to let you know them. That's why LJs are so great. You know the inside parts of people and sometimes they strike a chord that helps you learn something new about yourself.
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