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I am forty-three today. Holy shit. ; )
An Older Woman
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and what I mean is that
I am not 36 and I don’t stay up late much anymore,
I only wake up at four a.m. for no apparent reason.
What I mean is that the last joint I smoked is now old enough to vote.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean that I am wise
Enough now to see the value in being patient with you,
Even you, with all your flaws and fears and troubles.
What I mean is that I understand the terrible ache for things we can count on.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean that I am faithful,
To myself and to the truth as it reveals itself to me over time,
I have shed the need to proclaim my purpose so loudly.
What I mean is that I grow more quietly subversive and fierce each day.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean I may have been her
Or a variation on that same theme of false bravado and fuck off,
Sometime before I learned to be rather than to appear.
What I mean is that I am already what you can only hope she might become.
An Older Woman
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and what I mean is that
I am not 36 and I don’t stay up late much anymore,
I only wake up at four a.m. for no apparent reason.
What I mean is that the last joint I smoked is now old enough to vote.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean that I am wise
Enough now to see the value in being patient with you,
Even you, with all your flaws and fears and troubles.
What I mean is that I understand the terrible ache for things we can count on.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean that I am faithful,
To myself and to the truth as it reveals itself to me over time,
I have shed the need to proclaim my purpose so loudly.
What I mean is that I grow more quietly subversive and fierce each day.
I am not that girl.
I tell you this and I mean I may have been her
Or a variation on that same theme of false bravado and fuck off,
Sometime before I learned to be rather than to appear.
What I mean is that I am already what you can only hope she might become.
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43 ain't old, despite any feelings otherwise.
Nice poem. Yours?
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And yes, my poem. Exorcising the birthday demons. ; )
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dammit.
well, Happy Birthday, anyhoo.
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xo
C.
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Please have many more birthdays.
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Wow, also happy anniversary.
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amazing poem.
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happy birthday catelin!
your words speak for me too. ;)
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and this is a great poem. :)
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Love the poem, by the way... beautiful :)
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.......and a the happiest of birthdays to you! :) Deb
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Or a variation on that theme of false bravado and fuck off" is so great.
Did I say happy birthday? I'm older than you. (I typed that, and then I laughed.)
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It's a beautiful poem and thank you for using your birthday by gifting us with it!