When I was fifteen, I had a crush on a boy. His name was Antonio. We used to walk together in the Alameda on Sundays, making endless circles around the fountains and through the trees. He would take me to the library that stood at the center of all this on Thursdays and let me check out books with his library card. I would read the poems of Neruda, Octavio Paz, and Salvador Novo. I would read the stories of Carlos Fuentes and imagine Aztecs on motorcycles around every corner as I walked to school. This boy told me that he loved me and I told him that I loved him too, mostly because I was fifteen and he looked like he needed to hear it; and it didn't sound half bad....to be in love. Twenty-two years later, yesterday to be exact, we spoke on the phone. He'd been looking for me, he said. I asked if he was getting divorced, because I told him that I'd imagined when people started snuffling around for faces from the past it's because they're afraid of their futures. He said no. He's married, very happy, and has three children...one of them grown...two almost. He was not shocked that I had never married. He told me that I was always a "free spirit" and that was what drew him to me from the start. I told him that I was even more eccentric now, well on my way to becoming like the crazy American ladies that pack up everything and move to San Miguel de Allende. We exchanged pictures. He looked very much the same. Same eyes. Same hair (minus the super 70s style!). A nineteen-year-old boy behind a 42-year-old man's mask. My grandmother always said it was like that. She said you never forget your young face or the young faces of your friends. He wrote me back and said that I had not changed much. Still with the braids, I see. He reminded me of a day in the mountains and that he'd made a wreath for my hair of tiny yellow flowers. You still remember that? I was amazed at the details he still held in his head. My images of us together are blurred with only a few pieces still clear...drinking cokes from bottles with straws inside them, the smell of elote, looking out over the city one night, the shopkeepers sweeping the streets with brooms and water every morning. We shall have lunch soon, and we will sit together and remember our young smiles.



The Bridge


Between now and now,
between I am and you are,
the word bridge.

Entering it
you enter yourself:
the world connects
and closes like a ring.

From one bank to another,
there is always
a body stretched:
a rainbow.

I'll sleep beneath its arches.

Octavio Paz

From: [identity profile] omy.livejournal.com


What a sweet story. :)

I love that poem also.

I wrote your letter. Now i just need to get stamps, and it will be on it's way...
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


Thanks. And you are looking sooooooo Lilli Taylor/Ricki Lee Jones in that pic, my dear! Gorgeous!!!! : )

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That's ole mercury retrograde for you. I love this "My grandmother always said it was like that. She said you never forget your young face or the young faces of your friends."
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It's been an interesting season...to say the least. Hey, you are back from L.A. right? We should meet for lunch one of these days and compare notes! : )

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Your life stories sound like something out of a movie, a good one that is.
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Ha! Isn't that funny? And all the times I've thought over the years how my life was so unlike the movies...I guess it's all a matter of a bit of distance and perspective. : ) Oh, and I haven't forgotten you, by the way, a letter is definitely on its way (yeah, you terrorist creeps aren't stopping me from writing my friends!)...just been waiting for a good story to brew up in my head for ya!

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Sigh.....


LOVED your story! What a fantastic writer you are. Reading it made me think of my old friend Phil, who I haven't seen since high school (20 years now). I had such a crush on him, but I never told him. I wonder where he is now....
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I wonder about a few of my old crushes too...most of them didn't even know I was alive! : )

From: [identity profile] anoisblue.livejournal.com


What a wonderful story -- and I know I'm just copying everyone else but it's so true --- you have such a gift for storytelling.
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Copy away!! :D As awed as I am by your writing, any compliment from you has a value to me far beyond its words!

From: [identity profile] misstrixie.livejournal.com


What a great story! You have such a way with words. You're my new favorite lj'r!

The poem is beautiful too.

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Over the years I have gone to a few of my high school reunions. The interesting thing, to me, was that the people I liked in high school I still liked, and the jerks were still jerks.
And even now, though I have met many of these people as "grown ups," when I picture them they are still 16 or 17. And so am I.
I envy your ability to tell a story.

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I think your way with words is amazing. So glad to have found your lj! And I do love that saying your grandmother had... I suppose that has to be true. If I saw someone from my past, from 20 years ago, I couldn't help but see them and also play old movies of them in my mind's eye over the present moment.

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Thank you


I too remember that feeling. I hope that we all do.

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Wow.... are you ever cute....


Look at you with your little nervous habit chewing on your fingernail thing goin on.... Damn you are cute!

From: [identity profile] froglegs.livejournal.com


It is a funny thing about the braids, but I love them too. I can see yours in the user pic you used for this post and I wear mine that same way all the time. It is just such a great way to get long hair out of the way.

Are you native american as someone else commented? It appears you have a bit of the same epicanthic fold I do.
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From: [identity profile] catelin.livejournal.com


I never even thought of that before...I'm seriously going to do some geneology digging now!!

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You're such a pretty girl, then and now. I'll have to send you my picture at 15... a little different since I was pregnant then. We were so young once weren't we?
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It's funny...I always hated the way I looked growing up. Now I look at pictures and smile at how hard I was on myself. Yeah, we were so young. It's mindblowing how quickly time goes by.

From: [identity profile] seventhsister.livejournal.com


Thank you, Cate. I enjoyed this piece very, very much.

From: [identity profile] nandan.livejournal.com


How romantic. Good luck, if you see him again. I envy you your happy memory.

From: [identity profile] suladog.livejournal.com

wheeee


love the wings!!!!Didn't we all wanna be Charlies' Angels????Think this photo oughta be on your ID badge..andof course..the writing as always is superb......I'd read the story before but it's even better with the photo

From: [identity profile] cogsinister.livejournal.com


What a great start to my morning reading your story was....thanks Cate :)

So cute *giggle*

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The past....


Sometimes the innocence and idealism of the past remain as forgotten banners under the cobwebs
of societies morality and virtue. Our "standards" lie in anticipation of the moment to again
fly proudly with the wind in the foreground of our personal crusades.


---Sixth

From: [identity profile] fakeazulhair.livejournal.com




sweet story...

Lo siento por brincar de esta forma a tu journal.
v? tu icon , me pareci? muy mexicano y entre a leerte.
I hope you don't mind.

Es interesante,
en un principio tu foto me recordo la ?poca de los 70?s como dices, sin embargo a la segunda mirada...se me hizo muy cercana a mi. como que las ?pocas de una forma u otra regresan ya sea con outfit o ideolog?as representadas con otros nombres...
oi! dunno... nose si mi explique o no...

;)
Silvia

From: [identity profile] fakeazulhair.livejournal.com



oh sobre el icon , s? que est? en blanco y negro , tal vez no tengas el cabello negro ...dunno. Pero te pareces mucho a una escritora mexicana en esa foto, por eso me
llamo la atenci?n.

:p

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