Lightness

It has never been in my nature to keep my own secrets well. I can effortlessly carry the secrets of others with me to the grave, but my own buzz around inside of me like bees. Saying things out loud is like cutting loose the sandbags that weigh down my spirit. I was ashamed not to be as happy as I was so certain I would be. I was ashamed that the man I fell in love with failed me so profoundly and so quickly. I was ashamed when I realized that the root of my uneasiness lay not with the men I've attempted to live with, but with me. Having finally spilled it all out made me human again, and I woke up this morning feeling better than I have since I arrived here several months ago. My life is always good. I have no doubt that, having acknowledged my true circumstances, I will now get on with making it even better. I am grateful to and for you all. Thank you so much for the kindness and understanding you have always shown me.