catelin: (kiss)
2006-02-14 03:50 pm
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Valentine

One of the most wondrous things about this sizeless virtual universe is the gift of how everyone has shared themselves in ways that make me certain love truly does make the world go around. I've seen love cut you to pieces, and watched you put yourselves back together again. I've watched new loves take shape and arc into amazing successes and beautiful disasters. There have been steady, quiet loves, expressed less in words and more by accounts of small actions. I've delighted in the determination of each of us to love in the best ways we could, to keep the faith in ways that were sometimes graceful, sometimes not. I've ached with the loss of loves, with the fleeting and perplexing nature of certain relationships. I've raged at the inablity of some to love themselves well enough, at their blindness to their own value. I've celebrated in the steadfastness of your ability to love not only people, but ideas...notions of kindness, justice and reconciliation even in the most cynical of times. I've cried over your secret heartbreaks, your bewilderment at being hurt, and your despair of ever finding someone who speaks your language. I've cheered you on when you picked yourselves up and moved on without really knowing where you would find yourselves at the end of the journey. The generosity with which you all share yourselves with the world makes it impossible for me to ever be glib or cynical about this place or what I read here. I am the recipient of countless valentines, day in and day out, always happy to attach myself to the heartstrings crafted from your words.
catelin: (Default)
2006-01-30 10:00 pm
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Quickie

I'm here...quiet, reading, working feverishly to wrap up some writing projects. Winter doesn't seem like winter at all these days, all sun and moderation--leaves me with the feeling that the cold will be coming soon enough. My life is consumed once again by derby...our season starts in March and we're preparing in earnest now for our first kickass season. Work is hectic, but good. I've made a lot of decisions that are related to making peace with where I will be going from here. This entails a lot of work and catching up with things that I left to languish over the last year, but I'll get to where I need to be in time. The boys are both playing basketball now and it's an exercise in joy for both of them. There are few things I love more than watching how happy they are when they move, all action and enthusiasm, grinning and dribbling down the court at the rec center. As usual, it seems there are not enough hours in the day to get done what needs doing. I know I don't say much, and I'm probably a spotty friend even at my best, but I'm still keeping up with you all as well as I can. I miss you and I love you. I may not have much to say, but I'm always glad to know you are here with me.