Anxiety is so proned to hit early in the morning. It is an evil nasty thing. I spent too much of my first year of undergrad work waking up with horror and immediately vomiting. Anxiety is almost worse than depression. It steals just as much from you, is more aggressive and ends up causing its own depression. These winter months are the worst time for it. Look up a book by Pema Chodron called Start Where You Are. She helps me see past the blur of hard places and things. I need to focus on life now. We all have something these days. Mine is all consuming graduate school. I feel so one dimensional. I miss my girlfriend and nature hikes. I miss weekends! But there are a million little pleasures abounding. There is joy in every cup of coffee if you allow it to be swallowed with the liquid. There is sunlight on snow and random 40 degree days here. There is waking up at 2am when my girlfriend comes home from work, rolling over and wrapping my arms around her before I fall back asleep. There is still joy in making others smile.
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Date: 2006-02-16 01:05 pm (UTC)Look up a book by Pema Chodron called Start Where You Are. She helps me see past the blur of hard places and things.
I need to focus on life now. We all have something these days. Mine is all consuming graduate school. I feel so one dimensional. I miss my girlfriend and nature hikes. I miss weekends!
But there are a million little pleasures abounding. There is joy in every cup of coffee if you allow it to be swallowed with the liquid. There is sunlight on snow and random 40 degree days here. There is waking up at 2am when my girlfriend comes home from work, rolling over and wrapping my arms around her before I fall back asleep.
There is still joy in making others smile.