Procrastination

I amaze myself sometimes. Really. I just finished a very involved appellate brief of about twenty-five pages that my former office is paying me to do. I put it off until the last possible minute (well, not really...it's due on Wednesday, but I have other things to get to after tonight) but I cranked it out in a single sitting. Granted, the sitting was from about nine this morning until a few minutes ago, but I'm blown away that I finished it in that amount of time. I used to feel bad about procrastinating, even though I'm not really much of a procrastinator overall. But I would always beat myself over the head with the "I should haves" and "if I'd only" all the time.

Now I just think that it's a matter of timing. If I'm not in the right mindset to do something, then I'll spend twice the time to write something half as good. I knew I had to get this done today and I did. That's one of the things I like best about myself---that I do what needs to be done. I don't talk about it much, I don't bitch or cry. I just do it and get it done. It's that part of me that is hard and tough. It's the part of me that will never quit. Someone told me once that I reminded them of Patricia Arquette's character in True Romance...that I would be the girl who would fight to the bitter end, always believing that I still had a chance to survive. I think that's true, although it has not much to do with writing...but it does have to do with why I can write a brief in a day, I suppose.

Come to think of it, at the moment I'm so much more Jeff Bridges, sitting here in my boxers, drinking a Caucasian and relaxing. Because the Dude abides. And so do I. : )